the space between

i have been up since 6am.
far too early for a sunday.
the whole experience this morning was surreal.
the thick fog.
the packing ritual that i've seen more times than i can count.
a trip we would have made together.
with henry.
now that he is such a jetsetter.
but it no longer makes sense.
so i dropped them off at the airport.
pull away from the curb.
inhale.
exhale.
find a track on the cd player that suits the mood.
and breathe.

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i know i've already mentioned this but i love the trees in tennessee right now.

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a new friend (who feels like an old friend already), sent me carob in the mail. to alleviate the awfulness of being allergic to chocolate. i ate the entire king size block in oh, about 7 minutes. it was really good. i'm not sure if it was so good because i haven't had chocolate in nearly 3 weeks. or if carob is actually tasty. but either way. it was lovely.

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today i went to see a movie called 'bella'.
you too should see this movie if possible.
it centers around the threads that bind us together...our common humanity. and the beauty in life. and in living it to serve others.
the lead actor of the movie, eduardo verastegui, besides being one of the most beautiful men i've ever encountered, spoke at the end of the screening. he is passionate about his 'mission' as he describes it. to create films, and use his talent in order to tell stories he is proud to be a part of. stories that are meaningful. that inspire. that cause hearts to beat faster. that leave people with a flame flickering within. a desire to do better. be better. strive for more.
it was a beautiful film. an important message. and an afternoon well spent.

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this thursday is thanksgiving in this fine land.
i have been invited to several family thanksgivings.
each sound wonderful and festive.
but i think i might decline all the kind invitations and do something solitary.
it might involve a long walk through the woods with my ipod.
or sitting in my tree house, with copious amounts of tea and a good book.
the beauty of it is that i can do whatever i want to do.
and for that i'm very thankful.

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