Thursday, July 24, 2008

my fault.

today i realized i made a huge mistake at work. an-easily-avoided-should-never-have-happened-mistake. i found out as i was walking out of the office at 5.30pm, so ready to go home, unwind, pack for the impending cruise adventure, and sleep. oh sweet sleep - how i've missed you.

so, 5.30pm. panic stations. heart racing. stomach queasy. the air suddenly heavier. harder to breathe. it's not that my line of work deals with any life or death situations. the last time i checked, touring broadway shows were not changing the world in any drastic way. but i still have a job to do. a job i love. a job that i usually do really well.

i called my boss and left him a message explaining the situation. i apologized and took full responsibility for the mix up. i called my media buyer and she did her best to pacify me. she is an amazing resource to have. someone who has been in this industry and market for nearly thirty years.

boss calls back. cool, calm and composed, as always. reminds me it's just a mistake and tells me it's actually a good thing because it's a lesson to learn from and everything is going to be okay. heart stops its uptempo beating. stomach ceases to flip.

i think that one thing i'm learning how to do better is to 'own' my actions. i have a past that boasts many examples of my aptitude for wheedling out of messes i have created (i know marabeth will nod her head in agreement as she reads this). but in recent years i've realized that growth comes out of claiming those actions/decisions/mistakes/failures in judgment and being accountable, facing the issue head on and doing better next time.

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i love flipping my pillow over to the 'cool' side

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having an aesthetically pleasing desktop is a must. make yours lovely today. (thank you ryan lash)

3 comments:

Ashley Ludwin said...

if i may, im going to add that i am a part of your desktop too... for i took that photo on my genius film camera ;)

montague said...

cool side. yes. a must over here too, in summer month especially.

mistakes happen :)

Sneezy said...

Treasure this boss for remaining. He has a level head on his shoulders and is a good role model. All too often, I've seen bosses freak out worse than the people working for them.